Frugalista Meets Fashionista

Break ups are the worst. Especially when cheating is involved. I should know, I was a victim too. For many years I have suffered and I admit that until now, I am still afraid to trust anyone. I became insecure, paranoid and depressed. I always thought, I will never be enough. The truth is,it’s not really up to us to know if we are enough or not. It all depends on how our partner sees us. Nobody is prefect, we all make mistakes. But what we do is we try our best the be everything our partner want and need but we always end up failing. I believe that a relationship fails if we are not contented,not because we are not perfect. And since its the nature of human to want more,people tend to seek that person who can satisfy our needs even if there is no love involved.

This is when bad break ups happen. We tend to be angry and revengeful. But not all people deal with break up in the same manner. There are still people like me who deals with break up differently. It is important we know why we are doing what we are doing after the break up. We should know what kind of outcome we want because if we dont know,all the time and effort we spend to seek revenge would be useless.

I dont think the best revenge we can do to an ex is by making her life miserable. Why? Because that will just make you a sour loser. It will just make her think that she is really better of without you. I think the best way to handle is to show grace under pressure. Show her what she lost. Make her regret hurting and leaving you.
Maybe for now I will not understand why things have to end like this. I guess your reason was enough to just leave..to just walk away. You are smart. I know you made a conscious choice and maybe you are dealing with this way better than i am.
Again,my heart and my mind won’t compromise. I want to plot a retaliation,but i guess I dont have it in me. Though others may think na “katangahan lang yan”,but this “tanga” side of me is also the one wishing you to be happy with the decision you made. I guess,i wasn’t the one you needed. I guess I will always feel empty and lost just like before. I guess i am not the one for you. I wish you well. I am tired being miserable.