Frugalista Meets Fashionista

I have been told many times that I need to stop being prude and loosen up a little. They said I need to be more affectionate and sweet especially to my lovers. I am not the type who enjoys PDA(Public Display of Affection). Although, it can happen that I will be extra affectionate but that rarely occur. I just think that “lambing” should be done in the comfort of your own home and should be enjoyed with your lover alone and not for the whole world to see. I don’t understand why I feel so uncomfortable every time my lover becomes so touchy with me in public. Holding hands is fine but hugs and kisses in public is a big no-no.

I have a different understanding and practice when it comes to intimacy and being affectionate. I think I got t from my parents who are not very malambing to each other. Most people like saying “I love you” gazillion times. I, on the other hand, prefer showing that i love the person and rarely says “I love you”. Saying those words are important for me. I don’t want to lose it’s meaning. It’s like a beautiful love song being played over and over on the radio until people get sick of hearing it. I feel the same way with the word “Sorry”. It definitely lose its meaning when a person say it again and again. People should really stop abusing those words.

The way I show my love for someone is through actions. For example, for my family, I always make sure that I cook really good food for them so we can all enjoy eating as a family. For my friends, I make it a point that they feel that no matter what I will always protect them. And of course to my lovers, I do the usual stuff but not every day because I don’t really like redundancy. I think actions should count more than words because there are people who can just blurt out words they don’t even mean. And I absolutely detest that.

I guess, in all relationships, both parties should adjust. For someone who’s so used to long distance relationships, I should understand more the significance of intimacy. Of all people I should know how important it is that you constantly remind your lover that you love them. One should always make their lovers feel that they are being appreciated. Consistency is key.

We may not be physically together but I want you to feel that I am proud being with you. Yes, I will still feel sick to my stomach every time I will do it. It will be awkward but I know eventually I will get used to it. So,all I am asking for is a little patience and a little time. But just so you know,I am really trying.

I miss you.

* i will edit as soon i am in the mood to write..